Journey Now Available on Skype - 19th Nov 2016

Journey Now Available on Skype


“Your self is inherently liberated, it is the ideas that have been imposed on that self which must be set free”. My darling teacher Gangaji

Come come come to the edge, come to the edge, he pushed – she flew!!!!!

I am so excited to now be able to offer you this amazing process by skype as many peopledo not have time to come here on retreat but may have been here before and come up withsome challenges or blocks in their life they want to clear. Coming up to christmas and meetingfamily who still want to hold you in the child – it's time to stop reacting and feel the power and the freedom of who you truly are.

How easy is it for you

Set up a time to set aside 2 hours to really get to the core of the blocks you are having on a soul level that are limiting you from moving forward in your life. Establish what journey you feel you need to address or discuss with Paru which is best.

What's stopping me – Fear journey?
Abundance Journey – what is stopping me truly living an abundant life?  3 sessions only
Feminine quality journey – how am I not living my feminine core?
Ego patterns?
Life Purpose journey?

Get really clear on what it is you want to address?
What is it I truly want for myself?
If I got that what would it give me?
What am I avoiding?

Make sure you are set up on skype my address is Paru Clarke
Set up a time by email with Paru when you are available

What I can promise you in this session

Every year for the last 25 years I have been passionate in my own awakening and of recent with doterra essential oils and some amazing trips overseas with some of the best teachers in gratitude, spirituality and wisdom, have hit into a life of abundance and want to share this with you.I am excited to share my wisdom, nurturing nature, authenticity and fierce lover of truth totruly help you clear whatever is stopping you living from your true higher self/essence. If youknow me you will know that true wisdom comes from life's knocks, and I trust whatever knocks you have had, you will see the souls gift underneath. I will motivate, inspire and lead you to true abundance in your life, to live the life of your dreams and be the best version of yourself.Don't we all want to be this in this lifetime?

Are you ready? Email or txt 0272 777734 to arrange a time.


Special Cost to You until 31 December 2017

Nomally $300 your cost only $250 or 3 sessions over 6 months for $600 with followup

Thank you from the bottom of my heart, I feel so light and free at long last Anthea Nelson

Paru Clarke runs Shunyata Retreat and Day Spa

Getting Your Mojo Back - 7th Nov 2016

Getting Your Mojo Back

Getting your Mojo Back and Powering through Life

There is so much disconnection, depression and suicide happening in this country that has been named number 1 in the best country in the world to live. What is going wrong?

Most people who come to Shunyata have been through some tough times and have lost track, feel disconnected from their loved ones, feel something is not right anymore and finally reach out for some help. They have done the right thing – they have reached despair, their ego patterns can't work anymore and they are disconnected from their soul or their true self but don't realise it, just something doesn't seem right anymore.


I opened Shunyata for this very reason, I too lost myself, felt depressed, shut down and mistrusting of people in life when I lost custody of my child in Byron Bay 30 years ago and what a journey I have been on ever since and what a true privilege to offer a place that I would have loved to have come to, to get my mojo back. You can't trust people because most of them are living from their ego patterns, but you can trust in a higher power.

What is it to feel alive, open, motivated, inspired, on fire? When was the last time you felt this?Don't we deserve this, doesn't everyone want to live their best of themselves and then offer it to the world.

How do we do that – how do we get our Mojo back?

Well Paru has been working with people for 12 years now and has noticed a theme that is slightly different for each person and is tailored accordingly but generally follows this sequence. Each year she travels over the world to research the most advanced healing and consciousness teachers and this year discovered she was on the right track here in New Zealand and up to date.
First we have to disconnect from the world and come on retreat to give up doing and just be and take time to go inside and discover what we have missed being in the cogwheel of life.

Next we have to know who we are and who we are not The enneagram (unconcious patterns of behaviour )and what is our life purpose or gift to the world.

Next we have to know what foods work for nourishing our body, our temple to work at it's optimum.It is different for everyone and there is so many diets and food fads out there that people are confused. The one that is all encompassing and balances you body mind and soul is your ayurvedic type lady came off a P Addiction just doing this ayurveda detox programme

Next we have to come to forgiveness of all the people that have hurt us and who we are shut down from, because our shut down is taking our life force. We can do this with The Journey at Shunyata which not only helps with forgiveness, but takes you to your source and opens you toclarity from a soul prospective. or if you can't come to shunyata the doterra forgiveness oil is amazing

Next we have to know what is happening emotionally if there is some physical challenge and this we can do with a zyto reading and then provide the right essential oil to help you overcome this challenge. Most physical illnesses have an emotional component and if you have tried everything else, this usually works because it addresses the unconcious blocks. Many people have overcome chronic fatigue with a different oil.

If it is pain you are dealing with, combining the deep blue doterra essential oil or the oils in the zyto reading with craniosacral and reflexology – pain disappears and you can get on with living totally.

Next you have to establish your part in your separation with your loved ones. No more blame game, what we want – give it 10 fold and it will come back to you. Open up and be humble and in truth and this will bring back true intimacy. Forgive.

Self love is such an important part of our journey of awakening and most people are not gentle with themselves as they grow, Love Whatever arises. Fall deeply in love with your inner child and your body, your sacred temple.

Notice our underlying fears. We are either living in fear of love. Feel the fears and behonest about them which helps us to be free. What we resist persists. The journey helpsus to be true to our emotions and the amazing doterra essential oils also help us unblock feelings that we are not feeling.

Are we living our life in authenticity. 90% of the lies are the lies we tell ourselves and it'sour illusion, generally women, or denial generally men, that is blocking the truth.Truth will set you free.

Are we grateful everyday for what we have. We can't force it – it comes out of an open heart.But gratefulness brings so much more magic and godliness to our lives. The new spikenard doterra essential oils helps us with gratefulness

Have we got our life in balance, following our 3 passions in life and giving equal time to them all.This is true success.  I put balance oil on my feet every day to keep emotions balanced and my life in balance.

Have we surrendered to a higher power and asked that higher power for help or are we still proud and independent and feeling separate. Oneness is the only way the world is going forward.Live in abundance which means oneness, connection and wholeness. - there is enough for all of us.
Look at your life and ask yourself if you want to get off the cogwheel of madness in the world, chasing the dollar, temporary success, disconnection and suffering and make a difference bycoming home to your true self and getting true clarity from a soul's prospective. The only true and lasting joy comes from going in. Live causeless joy not dependent on anything or anyone and touch your loved ones with connection, true intimacy and depth and wisdom.

Call Paru today to book your retreat or day spa or how to obtain wholesale prices on these amazing therapeutic oils 03 3294773 or email

Watch" You are Not my Guru" Tony Robbins on Netflix to give you an idea of the
breakthrough you will have one on one at Shunyata




A True Breakthrough or Soul Convergence- Womens Awakening - 25th Aug 2016

How many of us are living our true soul's calling?

When you enter this journey life just gets better and better

I have just finished an amazing soul convergence in Portland Oregon clearing out blocks that
are restricting us to show up as the most pure version of ourselves - beyond ego, beyond mind and beyond personality so we can fulfill our souls mission or life purpose on this planet.

As we evolve we need inspiration to take us deeper and this man, Matt Kahn , truly lived up
to this with me.  He held us in source which is that space of emptyness of the mind, that space
called source, that space of essence or our true selves that nothing matters where we have a break from ourselves.  This place which is more heart centred has more truth, more love and more relaxation and is more accessible to me now.  In this place healing and manifestation happens easily.

When we feel safe our nervous system unravels and we relax more into this place inside of ourselves beyond ego.  Ego is our defence mechanism to survive in the world but we want to move beyond survival.    I realised why I loved to chant, this disolves the ego and opens the heart and will be doing more of this at Shunyata.

I learnt that experiences and desires  will never truly fulfill us, we will just move on to the next one.
He really took the micky out of the false spiritual which I loved and how important life is to really teach you what you need and evolve your life purpose.

There was a lot of reclaiming our power which really applys to a lot of us.  We play small and 
the difference between confidence and arrogance.    How the courage to live life on the edge
keeps us alive and many of us are half in and half out of life and relationship.

How we use distractions and excuses for not showing up in life and how checking facebook, emails etc diminishes our pure self.  How fear blocks us
What am I afraid to lose, to face or to gain?

How life brings us so much irony.  How we need to meet people, our lovers, our friends as if
we are just meeting them for the first time, to stop holding people in a box of how you remembered them- we are all evolving at a rapid pace.

I know that ego and the enneagram pinpoints the blocks of different people but understanding other  versions of ego being
spiritual ego
shadow (dark side or sabateur)
masks from parents and ancestors

A reminder that life is mapped out for us - we just need to go for the ride which I had read in
"From Onions to Pearls".
and how we just need to move forward and stop over analysing and self obsessing like so
many of us do on this spiritual journey.

The true gift from this man is the title of his book
"Whatever arises, love that"  Matt Kahn
and there are layers and layers of self love to uncover and to help in our healing we have to give
ourselves a break and truly love ourselves back to wholeness.

I feel so honoured and blessed to have been part of this soul covergence in Portland Oregon and as we all upgraded our consciousness we can now touch others in this amazing journey of awakening and uncovering the pure beingness of ourselves.
"Om shanti  shanti he
I am happy I am free"

May all beings find this state of causeless joy and happiness and I feel honoured to help you
discover this.  Please come to Shunyata this spring/ summer in a gorgeous ocean view peaceful sancturary and celebrate your uniqueness and true gift to the world of your beingness .  The ocean heals my soul and I'm sure it will heal yours

Also to see more of what happens in breakthrough watch

"I am not your Guru"  Tony Robbins on netflix

Success or Abundance - The true secret to Abundance from experience - 18th Jul 2016

Abundance or Success
Abundance has a good vibe to it but it has so much more. Here i will tell you
The main difference.
50% of people are depressed, 60% of people are unhappy, there is a huge
Student debt and many people are taking antidepressants and itś getting worse.
 Everyone will have their definition of abundance but for me it has come from
 experience.  I had been successful in the worldś eyes.  I was at the top of my
Career as a travel agent, travelled the world, spoke 3 languages and had a numerous amount of french boyfriends and I thought I had it all.  Well the universe had other 
plans for me at 32 years old I lost custody of my child and thank god I was living in 
Byron Bay at the time where the movement of personal development and spirituality was in abundance.  So here started my journey in. Success is always dependent on 
the outside and never sure.  It comes and goes and the bar is always being raised.  If you look at people who are successful, how many of them are truly happy inside. 
 Always chasing the next goalpost and never being in the moment.
 Why I advocate  and teach
abundance is because itś not dependent on anything on the outside and is living 
beyond the mind.

  1.  Itś all one, connected in tune with nature
  2.  If you work at a job that is your passion and makes you happy, abundance flows
  3. Itś a balance in life of body, mind and soul and living your passions
  4. Itś effortless because it comes out of your true authentic self, no struggle.
  5. Itś being the energy of abundance - less doing more being
  6. Itś stopping and appreciating life on a daily basis, gratitude also has a great vibe -
  7.  more beauty flows
  8. Itś continuous gratefulness for what you have not striving for what you dont
  9. Itś sharing your abundance by being of service to the world in your essence and it 
  10. comes back 10 fold
  11. Itś not automatic pilot but experiencing life beyond the mind, smell, taste, sound, what brings you present and joy
  12. Itś a connection with a higher power and the belief in magic
  13. Itś living life on purpose each sharing our gifts and following which brings us joy
  14. Itś limitless and living from the heart in causeless joy not the mind
  15. Itś not believing in the unconscious beliefs and patterns but living more from your 
  16. authentic self
  17. Itś freedom to do what in you love in creativity, time and vitality
  18. Itś living from innocence like a child, open and curious - the more we know the less we know
  19. Moving out of living from fear and embracing the unknown and change
  20. Itś being with the what is in the now
  21. Finally personaly abundance is living a beautiful higher love in relationship
  22.  honouring each other with deep respect and growing together and the feeling of 
  23. great humility, openenss and a great big smile for life.
The education system needs to be changed.  Itś creating drones and preparing us for a materialistic life.  This is why so many people are depressed trying to live up to a system that doesnt make people happy.  They need to bring in emotional intelligence 
training teaching children how to be with their emotions, yoga to be conscious of the body and meditation for mindfulness.
You have to really want this for yourself.  You cant have a vision without action.
My abundant life truly happened when I was introduced to DOTERRAŚ WILD ORANGE OIL.  This oil is so juicy, so alive and so vibrant.  Known for lightness, child like innocence, pure joy and abundance.  My life truly started to change-
And I deeply want this for all of us.
Book a retreat at Shunyata by the end of August for September, October or 
November and receive this free oil when u mention  this add.  250 drops of pure abundance.
Email and come and see where you are blocking 
Your true abundance in your life and come home to yourself.

Living a Higher Love - Relationships Today - 18th Jul 2016

Living a Higher Love - Relationships Today Relationships and Higher Loving

DARIUS BOYD  - How learning to forgive his mother helped the new broncos captain save his marriage and his career.

This is the work we do here at Shunyata
How do you love?  Do you know that most of us were never taught to love
Properly and what we learnt came mainly from what we saw until 7 years old
With our parents.  If we are good in our relationships we are good in life!!!!!
So how do we get there?
We as humans have needs that we hope our partner will fulfill like need for
Security, pleasure, importance, to become, to be needed, to grow etc but often
These needs are not met by our partners and we suffer.  We enter a relationship
 in the euphoria phase or honeymoon stage and we dont see theTruth and our egos
 are glazed over by that person.  They are amazing!!!!!!
Next stage realisation we we find their true faults, we dont say anything but
Enter internally into a sort of rebellion and often here people will break up,
Not leaving time for the deepening of this love.  We have so many more 
Beautiful stages to go through with our life partner and we just take the same
Problems to the next relationship and this is why so many relationships dont work
 and cause suffering.
I have made it my lifelong mission to serve a higher love in people, to help couples
 where they are at and open their hearts to come back to this love.Many people have
 not touched the mystery and the beauty of this love but weAll want it.  Dont you think
 your relationship is worth it? Most relationships are just attachment not love and we become beggars for love. 
 We expect the other to totally satisfy us and when they dont we suffer.  We truly need
 to know this love for ourselves first then the compassion and the unconditional love
 prospers for the other.  Awareness, mindfulness and deep passion will bring you the 
joy and love you truly want.
Many couples who have come to Shunyata in the last 11 years have opened their
 hearts again to each other and it is my deepest prayer that this happens for you both.  
It takes great courage but this love is worth it and you will be guided home to each
All couples booking a relationship retreat in September, October and November 2016
 by 31 August 5 DAYS $2000 will qualify for a free oil with doterra when u mention 
This add.

Emotional Healing - The most powerful way in New Zealand - 31st May 2016

Emotional Healing - The most powerful way in New Zealand

Are you carrying negative beliefs, conditioning & thoughts that are impeding your healing and blocking magic in your life?

Have you ever considered a retreat from the world? It’s never been a better time to take time out from your thoughts and retreat from your mind . Assess your beliefs and emotions and gain clarity and direction to take back your power to live a life from your highest potential.

Many of us are carrying emotional blocks that impede our physical healing and at Shunyata retreat and spa we can assess these and clear the major block that is stopping you living your
true potential.

Maybe you want to take an emotional fitness test to see how you score

We are bombarded by articles and advertisements about the value of becoming physically fit. What about your emotional fitness? How would life be if you were really emotionally free. Take this questionnaire to determine your emotional health. Each question has 4 answers to choose from. Please total the numbers from all answers.

1. Do you stop yourself from feeling emotions?

Often(1), sometimes(2), rarely(3), never(4)

2. How do you deal with anger?

Explode(1), suppress(2), talk about(3), feel it(4)

3. When someone else expresses anger do you –

Feel scared(1), explode with anger yourself(2), speak up for yourself(3), let their anger stay with them(4)

4. Do allow yourself to cry?

Never(1), rarely(2), sometimes(3), usually(4)

5. Do anxious feelings stop you from trying something new?

Never(1), rarely(2), sometimes(3), usually(4)

6. When someone close to you died, how did you react?

Not grieve(1), grieve a little(2), tell yourself to stop grieving(3), let yourself feel it(4)

7. Do you laugh, sing and dance with happiness?

Never(1), rarely(2), sometimes(3), often(4)

8. When you are criticized do you –

Feel neutral(4), stick up for yourself(3), criticize yourself(2), feel stupid(1)

9. Do you find yourself wanting approval from others?

Never(4), rarely(3), sometimes(2), often(1)

10. Do you blame others for how you feel?

Never(4), rarely(3), sometimes(2), often(1)

11. Do you feel grateful?

Often(4), sometimes(3), rarely(2), never(1)

12. How long does it take you to bounce back from feeling low?

1hr(4), 1 day(3), 1 week(2), longer(1)


42 - 48: You are emotionally healthy. An appointment with me could allow you to open further to the abundance of life.

35 - 41: Be aware of the areas in which you are not allowing yourself to open and feel emotions. I can facilitate this with you.

25 - 34: Make an appointment with me and get to the cause of being emotionally shut down.

Below 24: Definitely make an appointment soon to honour yourself and live life more freely.

Shunyata has been open for 12 years now specialising in emotional healing with The Journey 
Brandon Bays, Oneness techniques from the university in India where over 2million people have awakened, Doterra pure essential oils which aid in feeling whatever is blocked, NLP
(Neuro linguistic Programming) and many more modalities that address you individually on opening your heart and soul to living a more full life.





Preventative Medicine and doTerra Essential oils New Zealand - 18th Apr 2016

Preventative Medicine and doTerra Essential oils New Zealand

DoTerra will change your life

I gave up a $75,000 income working for Flight Centre's to earn $25,000 for quality of life after watching my mother have a stroke at 50 and live in suffering for a further 25 years. I have never looked back. My wake up call in Byron Bay 30 years ago has been the best thing that has ever happened to me. I sit here today nearly 60 years and feel so grateful for all the gifts bestowed upon me to empower people to take charge of their health and healing. Someone mentioned in the recent doTerra conference that they felt honoured that they could leave this earth knowing that their children will be looked after with these oils and this really touched me.

Shunyata retreat has been open for 12 years now and with my passion for emotional healing and ayurveda, I have witnessed nothing less than miracles in healing and the speed is amazing.Enter Doterra sublime essential oils and in the last year this healing has accelerated 10 fold. Imagine smelling this gorgeous fragrance that goes straight to your limbic area or emotional seat of the brain. This is why essential oils are the most pure and quickest way to heal emotions.Many clients who come to do the journey for emotional healing might be a type that runs from emotions, another that numbs emotions and with these oils all that patterning disappears and grief and sadness is finally met. I am in love, I now understand what wild orange (my always favourite) did for my candida. It allowed me to feel what was not being felt.
This is the secret ingredient to healing illness that we hear time and time again with people who use the oils.

Why wait till we get sick, why not prevent illness. Disease  is broken down to dis ease - smelling these oils brings ease to feel.  People who have been sick know that you can have all the money in the world and it means nothing if you are sick. I know that I asked for illness because I needed to have the compassion for people who live with daily pain. My heart goes out to you and this is why my mission statement is to help people to empower themselves to heal naturally.

Some of the costs of recent surgery in NZ
Hysterectomy between $12 and $20,000
Prostrate Removal $14 - $24,000
Total Knee Replacement $20-$29,000

Yes the medical profession are amazing when the bones have been broken and we need to get repaired. But what about doing yoga for a week of exercises that will fix knee issues and avoid operations. (Have 4 cases where this has worked) and even better with deep blue oil and deep blue rub wholesale price $38.50US and  $33 US 

The cost of these oils are minimum. One drop of peppermint is immediate enough to get rid of a headache,give you limitless energy for the day and oxygenate your cells and clear mental fog. Equal to 28 teabags. Wholesale price for 250 dropsUS $24.50 Wouldn't you love to have this in your handbag along with my other favourite Wild orange not only lightens your mood, but brings causeless joy, abundance and light energy wholesale price $13 US.

New to doterra are the emotional blends – wow wow wow. I have been smelling motivate with passion and lots and lots of amazing writing is happening. I have used console and people have shifted  deep grief and sadness  The forgiveness blend is beyond amazing. We all know the power of forgiveness – it frees you up to move on in life in freedom. Many people in the journey process are not ready to forgive, smell this oil and voila.

How could you not have these oils in your life.

Go to my website
 and either join and save 25% or under shop pay the retail price and if you want to know
more about these little gems email or telephone 03 3294773 and let me share my passion for life with you



Who Am I truly? My Story from the truth of who I am - 1st Apr 2016

Who Am I truly?  My Story from the truth of who I am



I have just finished my teachers book “Hidden Treasure “– Uncovering the truth of your life story by Gangaji and it has sent me on an even deeper level of self enquiry and given me the motivation and passion to speak my true story.

I feel so blessed sitting up in my kitchen overlooking the yachts bobbing in the harbour and watching the sunrise, listening to Peruquios singing and looking back over my life story and finding the grace and the truth in it all. The doterra oil of motivation and passion has helped me write this blog.

Have you ever sat in stillness and asked yourself these questions. Who am I truly? Why am I here? What is my gift or my purpose in life? What is the truth behind my story? Even sitting still is hard for most of us including myself.Are you living or just existing? There is so much more and have you let life take you to where you get the answers to these questions? Many people who come to Shunyata find out this answer just by sitting still and seeing who they are not – what has been running them – ego and then to go onto who they truly are and what a difference they can make in this world.

What is it that is blocking you? I realise a lot of my blocks were the addiction to drama, tragedyand unworthiness. This magic could happen to everyone else but not me! Hearing Gangaji's story of her life from a deeper prospective I realise that even though we have the same ego type and the same tendency to suffering and tragedy – her story is so different from mine in a truthful way.She found this place of peace and safety at a very early age in the form of an angel– I didn't even look there until 30 years old when I was forced on the path of intense suffering. A lot of my friends couldn't be around me at that time, they preferred the party girl full of highs and lows.

But grace or magic came in so many forms in the last 25 years with amazing teachers and teachingsand I feel so truly grateful to these teachers today and for my willingness and courage to keep on this path. Gratitude takes openness and the willingness to set your ego aside. Gratitude and humility (the 2 highest qualities in my eyes) send signals to all who meet us that we are all connected to something larger than life.

If we truly look back in our life – it was one miracle. My issue was mistrust. I was brought up acatholic and carried a lot of guilt and shame around my sexuality so I was angry with the catholic church. I thought spiritual people were real. I had to learn about the fact that we are all human.Therapists would teach such amazing teachings and then come into my travel agency and be true arseholes. I would shut down and then beat myself up for shutting down because David Deida said we should be open. Another incident came up on the same theme when one of my teachers has an affair with one of his students and thankfully was helped through this one to discover it was all about my self righteousness and we are humans having a spiritual experience and to leave myself some room for mistake and being human.On going to Osho – my master in Pune – I thought I was going to learn about free sex and love –I didn't need a master but what was really going on was my enquiry to What is true love? What is a higher love and what is surrender in the feminine form? Also unknown to me at the time, I got involved in dance therapy which took me to truly fall in love with my body and heal my eating disorders. A true miracle and when my mother died, the person closest to me in whole world, on reading her Eulogy, a priest truly saw my mother, so I healed with the catholic church.


 “If the doors of perception were cleansed everything would appear to man as it is, Infinite. For man has closed himself up, till he sees all things thro’ narrow chinks of his cavern.”  William Blake


We are either living from fear (false evidence appearing real) or love. The mind is full of fear, doubt and judgement and 95% of us live from this place. You can't get rid of the mind or fear you have to dive into the raw pure emotion of fear and make friends with your mind. Many people are scared of change and scared of death. If you really want to do this letting go of the ego – you have to die to the old ways and grow up. I was so attached to being sucessful(my ego pattern) to get my father's approval that when I decided to come back to New Zealand to open Shunyata Retreat to help people in suffering, I went into intense fear of the unknown. I had to literally shake with the deepest fear and have never been scared of the unknown since. I was so used to being sucessful as a travel agent, little did I know what Shunyata had to teach me. A deep trust in life.  Now success has been my gift from my father as what is success truly?


You cannot run from your emotions, if it's peace you seek, dive into the core of the emotion!

My feeling that most people who are scared of death haven't lived. This is two certain things in life, change and death so you can understand why so many people are living in fear. I simply love this poem The Invitation by Oriah

 I knew I had to trulyget ready for the first major death in my life, my mother and what was worse, we had to take her off liquids and food after 5 strokes. This was the hardest time of my life so I spent a year before preparing myself, listening to people's stories and reading lots .Brandon Bays had said grief shouldn't need to take more than 7 days if you go into it totally. I did , I let my emotions be out of control totally and it took 2 months but today I live the legacy of my mother – I live her passion not her suffering. !

Grief has to be felt, time has to be had and everyone grieves in different ways. It is out of control. Some people say get on with it, but society is the cult.

Trust that everything happens for a reason to serve you

In the 11 years I have worked with people many people have strong sabateurs that stop them living their potential.  This sabateur can come in the form of pride, unworthiness, numbness,
fear of confrontation and rage.  My sabateur was so strong when I first did the journey intensive 18 years ago when I came out and my mind doubted everything. But looking back on this memory release,  this journey has been the beginning of a souls learning with my sister.  We had so much sibling rivalry and today we serve each other on a deep level..



My other huge learning in life came to me from 2 of my major teachers – my father and my son.My ego type was so sensitive, I took everything personal and often felt hurt by people's comments.I would hold onto these comments and rehash and go over and over them and then devise a way to get back at them. Well the 2 people who hurt me most, were my son and my father. They taught me to not take it personal and get over the hurt, it was my hurt and I then came out of victim.


Life offers us challenges so we can expand our abilities and stretch our horizons and strengthen in ourselves.


In the 11 years I have been working with people, and in my own life, the other emotion which was often there was loneliness. I now realise I was always running from being alone and until I deeply fell in love with myself, that loneliness has become all oneness. Remember you wake up with you every day, wouldn't it be good to love your own company. This is the best investment you can ever make.

Which brings me to self love. No-one ever taught us to love ourselves. They said this was selfish.What about self caring? How can we be with or love another person if we are not full.? How can we be a carer, mother or any role unless we are there for ourselves?Everything else is coming from ego, either pleasing or trying to get their love ,and eventually you will burn out or crack cause it's exhausting keeping it up.
.My journey and ego pattern had been to get love on the outside,I would try try and try, sell my soul, achieve, do anything to get this love. Often I would burn out which many people are experiencing these days. My candida ,which I asked for a year ago, was this journey of burn out and learning to get my no stronger. It was showing me ways in which my ego was still running me. It also gave me deep compassion for people who had to experience pain in their bodies. I had never been through problems with my physical health and life taught me many things on this path. It was the hardest thing in the world for a foodie like myself, but an incredible learning. The body will tell you what you need to learn and how many times do we ignore it. Right now I have had a pain in my heart so deep, couldn't sleep last night and it has been there for 2 days and I couldn't get the message. On doing a reading it was about the oil of communication. It was telling me to stop, and do this article, and I was looking for who I wasn't being true to in communication and finally truly got this message. As I write right now this pain is slowly subsiding. To think I was nearly ready to go to the doctor.


Everything that happens to you in life is a gift for your soul to deepen – listen to your body!


Forgiveness is so important to clear your soul. It is not easy and can be more painful than the wound. But to have true peace we have to forgive the souls of the people who wronged us. Weare not forgiving their actions.

This was truly hard for me to forgive my ex husband who won custody of my child and harassed me for 10 years after from his pain of me leaving him. But when his soul appeared and communicated that he was devastated that I left him, I could understand why he was so bitter and angry with me. On forgiving his soul my victim story was over from that dayand life changed so deeply

. Often when I am doing the journey here at Shunyata the forgiveness isn't always easy for people, thank god for doterra and their new blend of forgivenss, they smell that and we break through authentically. This sets you free totally and you are supported.  You are forgiving for yourself to be free.

The next topic I want to talk about is prayer and gratefulness. I was asked recently to speak about a prayer around gratefulness and realised that how can you describe this that is the same. You are genuinely grateful when your ego gets out of the way. You don't pray for a million $, you notice what amazingness you have in your life and give gratitude to this. This is prayer. You notice it is not you that has given this to you, it is all of your teachers, your family, your life, your loved ones and everything that has made you who you are today.

Recently on going to the oneness university in India, I named my higher power Sweet Laxmi Divine – sweet to soften me when I am hard on myself, Laxmi for the goddess of abundance as I have had to truly know what abundance is beyond money and divine for the feminine form. I give thanks to her everyday.


There are only 2 ways to live – you can live as if nothing is a miracle or everything is a miracle


My deepest prayer is that people come to get to know who they truly are, their essence, thei rhigher self and dedicate their life to this truth and drop the veils of illusion and denial, that is living from the mind and the ego and share their purpose or their gift with the world.


It is your birthright to be happy and my deepest prayer is  that all beings be free and live from causeless joy

Today I am living the life of my dreams after deeply transforming on the inside, doing the work I love, travelling the world and touching people with a deep love and would want this
for you too

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